For over 15 years, Daniel Carcillo has left home to achieve his goal of becoming a professional hockey player.
He tried best not to think about what he said, during his time as a member of Sarnia Sting.
"One of the brightest memories that are emerging is one of my teammates who are on the table who is naked, who bites two veterans with their bands. He yelled," Carcillo said in the CBC.
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He said one of the coaches heard screams and came out of his office. He said the trainer provided the player with a fix attached to the game.
"It was more than a joking membership, but for me – sitting on my stand watching it – told me I had no one to turn to to tell about this kind of stuff, you know to tell these guys what we're going through , "Carcillo said.
"Some guys get it harder than others"
The recent high-profile stories that came up with complicated sexual assaults, involving sports teams at the elite Toronto private school, prompted Carcillo to talk about their own tests.
"It's amazing how you can experience a very emotional injury and even do not think about it," Carcillo said.
"And then something as simple as reading a piece of paper and reading about misuse of another can cause all these emotions and imagery, and it's so bright – that's right for you," Carcillo said about what he and his colleagues the young people had passed 2002/03. Ontario Hockey League season.
"I moved away from home at the age of 17 to persecute my dream of making it into the NHL and making something from myself. And what we and 11 had to suffer was daily abuse," Carcillo remembers.
He said that new entrants often have to pull their trousers down and submit themselves to the cutting edge of the gate.
"Some guys got it harder than others, because they were misunderstood, or some guys thought we were a bit weird or weird, and we just did not fit the typical male hockey player," Carcillo said.
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And that was not the worst of it. He remembers that he is dipped in a workshop with six teammates.
"Forty-five minutes and you're naked in a hot box, whose rash, chewing tobacco, was thrown through us through the tube. That was my break point," Carcillo remembers.
Carcillo told the coach and management was often aware of what was going on and even taking part at times – just like an incident with a tied player.
"Time is right"
Carcillo finally took over the team's leadership and expressed concern at OHL Commissioner David Branch. Carcillo credits the affiliate, taking steps to reduce his situation.
In a CBC announcement, OHL said it continued to zero-tolerance to accidents and implemented policies to prevent dangers or intimidation for several years. It said players are encouraged to express their concerns, fearing retaliation. Each team has an independent chaplain who can listen to confidential concerns or complaints.
Carcillo said there's a lot to do and believes that time is right.
James J. Johnson is a professor at the University of Manitoba and has extensively explored the lack of sports.
"When these stories first came out, I said several times that I thought it could be the same as my crawl level." Johnson said. "This is one of the most horrific stories, and it gives other people the opportunity to express their horrific stories. It seems like there is a time when we can come up with these stories and maybe act quickly."
At the same time, Johnson said that Carcillo and others fighting for change face significant obstacles.
Management is usually part of the culture
"Trainers and sports managers, general managers are usually former sportspersons, or they are good, so they are also part of this culture, and in terms of poverty, if it's done to them and done to others," says Johnson.
"And it really normalizes behavior because everyone does it. So the greatest resistance I say is in fact the people who are in it. And it takes some one what we saw today when Dan came out and said," Yes, I do it I was lucky and it was one of the worst things and almost ended up in my career. ""
Carcillo wants to give the victims a voice, a release to tell their stories.
Regardless of what he went on, he emerged from his time at Sarnia and went to the NHL career, which included two Stanley Cups with Chicago Blackhawks.
However, these Sarnia years remain valid.
"Look at this magazine and go to find out what the names were for these Sarnia team representatives and look at how some of us have become addicted to problems of relationship," Carcillo said.
"It was supposed to be the best year of my life, the climax of my dreams and all my hard work," Carcillo remembers.
"Instead, we had to deal with this abuse, everyday abuse, and that's what I thought it was normal … because I was abusive about telling you that next year you will be able to do it for new ones, the next class comes." inside. I remember thinking because it struck me in my head that I could never physically do it to someone, it's too painful. "